我怎麼等？？？

同樣的一場曰落　同樣你還是沒說
只是抱緊我　時間一到就鬆手


      你用一萬個理由　都比沉默還溫柔
      為什麼愛我又不斷退後
      你害怕的是什麼　你想要的是什麼
      站在你背後　我連呼吸都痛


我要　相信你是愛我的　我要　相信你是勇敢的
我煩　時間是最殘酷的　我怎麼等
我要　相信你是愛我的　不要　當我每次唱情歌
眼裡總有太多淚　不停拉扯


      我用一萬個答案　解釋我們的距離
      到最後發現我全都猜錯
      你害怕的是什麼　你想要的是什麼
      站在你背後　我連呼吸都痛


我要　相信你是愛我的　我要　相信你是勇敢的
我煩　時間是最殘酷的　我怎麼等
我要　相信你是愛我的　不要　當我每次唱情歌
眼裡總有太多淚　不停拉扯


      你懷裡有太多問號　告訴我怎麼依靠


我要　相信你是愛我的　我要　相信你是勇敢的
我煩　時間是最殘酷的　我怎麼等
我要　相信你是愛我的　不要　當我每次唱情歌
眼裡總有太多淚　不停拉扯

I ain't feeling that well

It's 6pm when i opened my eyes from a long nap with a headache.Feeling not good.Been to emotional recently.
Perhaps the feeling for 3 years back is here again. Feel to do nothing at all. Even my favorite hobby all the time-nail coloring. The feeling is so wrong.

Facing my lappie with my tears flowing on my cheek. It's something I couldn't control it. I don't even know the reason why my tears is flowing.

Lying on my bed, staring the ceiling for a moment with a blank mind. I know what i should do now. But i just don't know how to work it out in a correct way. I understood everything, but i am just too selfish and perhaps, I have no intention to understand and accept what is already happened.

Even in my dream, i still afraid with the feeling of losing it. It is too much for this.

I don't know this could actually really hurt me so much.

I hope I will be better as time goes by.

*cheers*  

♥